FIFTEEN I left the Catholic
Church and began my quest for God. For
years I looked high and low—in churches,
synagogues and temples—for the “golden
thread” that binds us all together.
Wherever I looked I found those who
believed in the Fatherhood of God but
failed to accept any brotherhood beyond
their own group.
I spent the
next two years in the army, where for
the first time I lost my faith in God.
There was just too much death and
destruction over ideology and cultural
points of view, not to mention a long
string of assassinations ending with the
death of Robert Kennedy. At the time it
was more than this heart could handle.
But thanks to the ever-present spirit,
my doubt lasted only a short while and
was followed by a beautiful spiritual
resurrection. After saying goodbye to
Uncle Sam in 1969 I continued my divine
Next on the
path was starting a small business with
my father (it ultimately failed), then
marrying my high-school sweetheart in
1971. After doing a short tour through
metaphysics and mind-over-matter
material, I found a small esoteric
manuscript written in the 18th century.
It was one of only five known copies. It
was hard to decipher and didn’t make
much sense to me at the time, but it was
so rare, I assumed it must be valuable.
One evening in
1976 I was attending a party. It was
there, while throwing darts, that I met
a young man named
We talked about religion and philosophy,
and this became our common ground. When
I told him about my manuscript, he asked
to see it. A few days later, Pat stopped
by my apartment, picked up the
manuscript and off he went. Two days
later he returned saying it was an
interesting read, but if I wanted to
read something really
worthwhile, why not try this “small,
blue book”? He then handed me my first
copy of the Urantia Book. Thanks, Pat!
Wow! My first
reading was full of aha!
moments. I felt I had come home. My
heart was filled with peace; my mind
knew it had found the “golden thread” it
was seeking. The great mystery was now
an open secret. The truth I’ve found in
the book and the good spirit I’ve found
within the readership have forever added
to my life.
My search was
finally over, but the journey has just